Well, Day 3 is here & gone... I did it! I had more cravings yesterday than I have yet, but hopefully they are right with the mumbo jumbo about after the 3rd day it gets much better.
I bought strawberry pop tarts yesterday, so I'll be able to take my pill sooner today. I broke down and took my pill yesterday morning w/ a granola bar. I had to fight to get that down. Yuck.
I am finding that the evening pill is giving me an upset stomach - to the point that I feel like I'm going to puke. Funny thing is; my dad doesn't take the morning pill for the same reason. I'm not going to stop taking the evening one quite yet... we'll see if it passes.
Today I need to start getting my butt in gear for the Waconia Snowmobile show this weekend. I have to go to Walmart today and buy hangers (and dog food & kitty litter). We are leaving Friday morning, so I want to have everything packed & ready by Thursday night. Of course, we'll go through the same fight again - I pack light and everything between my stuff and the husbands stuff can fit into one duffel bag. I have a nice sized one... only it's pink. He has this thing with his clothes being in a pink duffel bag. Silly man.
I've got a good selection going of SledderWear merchandise. A package of stickers should be at the post office today. I ordered a few last minute ones last Friday. I have my designs printed out for the catalog and just need to print out the ones I've done this week.
Plus I need to go to the bank today - the husband is getting the puppy-trade sled on Thursday.
Oh.... and it looks like the green Kawi won't be at the show. Don't ask - it's a sore subject. Everything that could have went wrong, did. It ran for 5 minutes last night, though! Sounded great! And then...... well.... it was good while it lasted.
The weekend flew by really, but wow. This morning the cravings are pretty bad. I haven't taken my pill yet because you have to take it with food and I am dying for strawberry pop-tarts, which I will be getting at 8:00 when I drop Demon #1 off for a skiing day trip. Then I'll take my pill. I don't take it right away in the morning because I'm one of those people who can't eat right away after I wake up. The husband can get out of bed and walk to the stove and start cooking .... the thought of it makes me want to puke.
I've heard the 3rd day is the worst. So far I think they are right. If I knew there were cigarettes in this house, I'd smoke one. Even just a drag would settle me down right now....
God I hate cigarettes.
It's been 27 hours without a cigarette (but who's counting?). It was a rough morning, but after that it was a breeze really. After supper I craved one, but it went away pretty fast. Funny thing is, I was playing Sonic on the Xbox and all of a sudden I started craving Cheeto's! LOL So I went to the store and bought some... had a handful and remembered that I really don't like Cheeto's.
The husband isn't doing so good... all I hear is "I really want a f*@king cigarette!". I told him to go buy a pack if he wants one so bad. He questioned me on the meds.. "I thought they were supposed to make you not want one".
Well... I don't want one.
Anyway. Day #1 as a non-smoker is almost through. It will go fine the rest of the night, too, because I didn't smoke much at night to begin with. Still gotta go have my chocolate peanut butter ice cream though. Don't anyone expect me to break THAT habit!
I did think of something today, though. After you quit smoking, your taste is supposed to change because you aren't killing your tastebuds with the smoke. Ok, great. BUT WHAT IF I DON'T LIKE THE TASTE OF CHOCOLATE ANYMORE?!?!?!!!!????
Depressed mood, agitation, suicidal thinking and suicidal behavior have been reported among some users of the pill. Today Chantix is getting a warning on its U.S. label that asks doctors to monitor for these behaviors. Pfizer points out that people giving up smoking, or people who are smokers in the first place, tend more toward depression than their nonsmoking peers. While Pfizer says a causal link between behavioral symptoms and its drug hasn't been proved, the seriousness of some of the events prompted the stronger label.
From the Wall Street JournalTrucker heard about this on the radio today and called me... scary stuff. He's been really crabby all week, but I didn't think it was the pills. (He ended up putting a snowmobile suspension in by himself because he was being a dick and I told him I wouldn't help him if he was going to be like that!)
Anyway... I'm still taking the pills. I think I'm actually in a pretty good mood, considering. But this is just an FYI for anyone else thinking of going on Chantix.
It must be day 7 because tomorrow is my Quit Day. Today is my last day of smoking. I just had my last "morning cigarette". It was kind of sad....
Am I ready? I don't know... all week I've been smoking less, I'm down to 1/2 pack a day instead of a pack or better. The last 2 days I have forgotten my evening pill, though.
I mentioned to my parents (who are very close to the 1 month mark!) that I'm down to 1/2 pack and they said; "smoke 'em up! When they are gone they are gone!". I don't want to smoke them all... well, I do, but as I'm smoking I don't like it, it tastes like shit and I hate the taste it leaves in my mouth.
Amazing that a stupid pill can do that!
The only side effects I've had is tiredness, but yesterday I didn't have it. I felt like I had taken NyQuil or something. Supposedly it's worse the week you stop smoking, but then it goes away. At least thats how it was for my parents. We'll see. I suppose you can't smoke if you are sleeping. :)
.... but you can't sleep with an 13 week old puppy in the house either! (she can fetch, sit, lay down on command already - but the potty training? Ha! Thats a joke.)
Oh... and to my "daily blog readers" - you know who you are, but I don't. I can see there are returning visitors to this site via Statcounter, but I don't know who they are. But, you know who you are and I've gotten quite a few more daily readers since my non-smoking road. Thank you - maybe you are here to see if it's worth it or maybe you are just nosey or maybe you have some office bet going to see if I do this or not... but thank you just the same. It's nice to know that someone is checking in with me to see how it's going.
(Would be nice to know who you all are! LOL Leave a comment! Don't be shy!)
Nothing major, but I smoked less today without even realizing it!
Day #2 on the Chantix. Nothing to report. No changes... although I have smoked less today, but it might be from the headache I have.
Saki!! Sort for Kawasaki, of course :) She is a 10 week old golden retriever that we brought home this morning. Cute little thing, isn't she?
The husband & I both got a prescription for Chantix yesterday. It's that new quit-smoking drug that seems to be the drug of all drugs. You take the pills for a week before you actually quit - it's really interesting. Supposedly the cigs will start tasting like shit before your week is up. We'll see... I take my 1st pill today.
Official "Quit Day" is the 19th.
I started smoking when I was 15. Heck, it might have been the end of 14, I'm not sure. 15 for sure. I'm 35 now. Easy math, I can figure that one out! It's depressing though - 20 years of smoking. Yikes. Yep, I think it's time to quit. I'm already having trouble breathing a lot and I've always got crud in my lungs.
My mom died of coronary heart disease at the age of 46. I was 5 days away from 8 years old. I had a hard time when the demons were 7-8 years old, I really did. Funny how that works. My oldest brother is past 46 and he told me that he had a very hard time with being 46. If he could make 47 he'd be ok.
My dad is 72 now and has COPD, Emphysema and has an oxygen tank in the house for when he needs it. He smoked for 60 years (yes, he started at age 12 - a prescription from a doctor, believe it or not! For hay fever!) and I believe he is about 2 weeks of being smoke-free thanks to this Chantix.
My bestest friend in the whole world is on her first week of being smoke-free. Yea Misikins!
One of the side effects is changes in dreaming... I already remember most of my dreams and some of them are way out there...
...a litter of raccoons were sleeping in my slippers last night.....
....I can just imagine what sort of things I'll be dreaming about now!
So bear with me over the next few weeks, it could be a bumpy road. I'm sure most of this blog will be about smoking for awhile now so if you wanna skip it for a few weeks - I'll understand.
The demon stayed home. She isn't dying, but she's sick all the same. It's now 1p.m., not a.m., p.m. and whats going on? She's sleeping and I'm not. I'm tired, so is she - but she's sleeping on the couch, snoring away like a baby, probably having some sweet dream. She's all comfy and warm under a quilt... ok partly warm because of the fever she has, but warm just the same.
And here I sit. Tired, not warm but very tired.
I hate being a mom.
Today I need to start getting my butt in gear for the Waconia Snowmobile show this weekend. I have to go to Walmart today and buy hangers (and dog food & kitty litter). We are leaving Friday morning, so I want to have everything packed & ready by Thursday night. Of course, we'll go through the same fight again - I pack light and everything between my stuff and the husbands stuff can fit into one duffel bag. I have a nice sized one... only it's pink. He has this thing with his clothes being in a pink duffel bag. Silly man.
