Saturday, December 15, 2007

Scared of what I do

So if you come to this blog regularly, you are aware that I have my own shops. I have no problem talking about it here, because I figure if you don't want to hear about it you won't be here in the first place or you will just skip over that stuff, right?
Thats really the only place you will hear *me* talk about my designs. Occasionally on my forums, but nowhere else. I'm afraid of what people will think. How dumb is that?
The other day the husband asked me to make him a t-shirt for an upcoming snowmobile ride that he's going to with a bunch of people from Fine, I did it. Then he wanted to post it there... oh good god. Why? Why did he have to do that? Now I'm sitting here worried that people are thinking I'm just bragging or something. So stupid. It's my job! I'm supposed to talk about what I do, otherwise how will I make money, right? I can tell strangers - but I can't tell friends. That is the most backasswards thing I've ever heard of and it's coming out of my own brain. Dumb. When the husband tells someone about one of my designs I just cringe. Just shut up already! I want people to know, but I don't want them to know.
I think my brain needs some new wires or something.